Phoenix

It has been a while

Since I last bared my soul on a piece of paper

Since I felt even slightly inspired

Whether ignited by joy or grief

And yet now it seems

that this is the only way to find myself again

my True Self - me in the rawest most pure form

me untainted by you

And how ironic that even now

even in the search for my essence

I have to journey through enemy territory

- my feelings for you

Attempting desperately to find myself

somewhere beneath the ashes

under the rubble

of the castle we once built

But on this voyage

through the inferno - down to my core

I learned that the flames

those which burned so bright in that hearth

which nurtured you

and brought you back to life

[oh so many years ago]

were me all along

I was the fire

And now - now that our love has been consumed

now that the castle is no more -

that you no longer fan my flames

I have been reduced to an ember

But make no mistake

with time

just enough - to catch my breath

this ember will grow into a roaring fire once again

#poetry #literature #artemisandherarrows #ladyartemis