Your final blow

I don’t know when it happened

I know it was gradual but I can’t remember

that first moment of

Disregard

When you treated me differently

when you began acting like I was nothing

like I didn’t matter to you anymore

when you took me for granted

as if my love for you was above mere mortals-

Saintly- and

expected to endure your cruelty

without faltering, without receiving any love in return

as if expecting kindness from you was -

too much-

you wanted me to endure in silence whilst you took and took

while only giving disdain in exchange

and for a while

I did

I stood by you-

I accepted your scraps

I didn’t leave even though I constantly felt

overlooked

kicked to the side

an afterthought if there ever was one

Eventually

the day came when my body could no longer endure the pain

and my mind couldn’t take the torture

yet I still didn’t leave - Instead I pleaded

“please, ”I sobbed-

“please give me a reason to stay”

and it was only when your heart was not moved by my sorrow

by how mine lay on the floor-

shattered-

by the sight of my hands -

bruised and bloody from fighting away all your demons

my shoulders in pain from carrying

the entire weight of our relationship

and my knees scrapped from kneeling on the floor

- begging you to do your part

that I walked away

and I agonise - not because of the suffering

I carried

for so long

but because it was your final blow

Indifference-

that knocked the last breath I had out of my lungs

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